Happy Birthday Ryan

Happy Birthday Ryan

Today you would be 28

But there were places

You had to go, oh no

You could not be late

There was a party up in heaven

They had already set the date

So you were partying up in heaven

While we were weeping here on earth

To us you are so very priceless

But the Angels knew your real worth

So we said our sad goodbyes

And settled for crocodile tears

On each of these, your birthdays

Throughout all the long years

We love you so very much

You are such a special joy

And each year on you birthday

We’ll celebrate you; our

bright and shining little boy

Our radiant little fallen star

Oh how we miss your light so bright

But know dear son, you are never far

From your parents heart come day or night!

The gifts were all wrapped

All preparations made with care

For your sixth birthday celebration

How could we ever know

That you would not be there!

The gifts remained unopened

All careful plans were laid aside

Instead of a joyous day of life

We cried and cried and cried

Then we attended your funeral

Instead of your party

All decked out with toys

All things bright and wonderful

For a bright and shining little boy!

You now are a full grown man

In another time and place

We will forever love you and cry

Until that day we can see your face!

♥♥♥♥♥♥

I love you and I miss you

I just want you to know

I wish you were still here

I never wanted to let you to go.

Happy 28th Birthday Ryan!

asa

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Party In Heaven

It was a day of dark sadness

and also a day of misplaced joy

we were so broken hearted

the day we lost our little boy.

However the angels

up in heaven were singing

a song of jubilation

for their heartfelt prayers

had finally been answered

and they were granted

their grand celebration

of you our broken wounded

little five year old boy

who suffered so much

during your time on earth

but those angels in heaven

sure knew your worth

they couldn’t stand

to see you suffer any more

they insisted that you

not have to suffer any more

they so desperately

wanted you to have

a much bigger better day

so they begged and pleaded

with the king on the throne

and He agreed with them

and brought you home

and to your fair glory

on top of our deep pain

in spite of the agony

and raw viciousness

that broke our young hearts

and fused our reeling brains

we shed crocodile tears

while you left us here

to go and get ready

for the biggest event

of your entire life

where there were so

many, many, many presents

that they needed a big, big tent.

But we were left to bear

our great pain and deep sorrow

they get to have you today

while we have to wait

for that long off tomorrow

that left behind the long ago

yesterday that lives in our hearts

this day twenty two years ago at

9: 05 am Sunday August 1988

you had to go to the party

no, no you could not be late

and since your sixth birthday

was just two days away

you had to go right then

you knew you could not stay

so that was it and off you went

to your most important day

dear sweet precious Ryan 

our beautiful little boy

you know that you

our fabulous little joy

was heaven sent

and taken back again

in the blink of an eye

suddenly all that was left

were the tears that we cry

and it was then

in that moment that we knew

just how much we really love you.

When the Lord came, reached out

His hand and closed the book

we did not even get a chance

for one last kiss nor one last look

of our dear sweet precious little lamb

so go in peace our dear son

may your journey be light

and may you be well fed

may the sun shine always

on you shoulders

may you always be well read

and may the blessings of the king

fall upon your table and

reign down upon your head

like precious wine and ointment

and priceless broken bread.

asa

images; internet

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Go With God My Son

DEPLOYMENT DAY

Go in peace dear son

may your journey be light

and may you be well fed

may the sun shine always

on you shoulders

may you always be well read

and may the blessings of the king

fall upon your table and

reign down upon your head

like precious wine and ointment

and priceless broken bread

so until you return home dear son

I will keep you in my prayers

and hope with all my heart

that in all of my tomorrow’s

you will be forever there.

God be with you my son

I will miss you very deeply

for the next ten long months

I love you with all my heart.

Be strong and courageous!

asa

images; Katie Andersen, collage asa

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The Unbee Tree

The Unbee Tree

rests deep in the wood

where a cacophony of sound

inhales woodsy tones

rich earthy smells

that make the heart beat

and the chest swell

with all the sights

and sounds and

fragrance sweet

that make this

wondrous place

such a special treat

for all His little ones of

The Unbee Tree

sitting nestled in deep

soft luscious green grass

where His children play

and feel good all day

where never is there

a harsh word to say

where no heart is blue

and the sky is not gray

Under The Unbee Tree

boys and girls are

all safe and sound

there is no one

to hurt them and

no monsters around

no one even gets wounded

if they fall from the Unbee

Tree down onto the ground

into the soft green grassy

days of sunshine and glee

all the children are happy

all the children are free

each day anew for

each lad and lass

not a worry not a care

no school, not even a class

so frolicky free in the

warm summer sun

every day with Jesus

is going to be fun

and all the days will

soon be unending

in the eternal realm of joy

where our gentle priest king

loves and cares for each

broken little girl and boy

unkempt little ragdolls

just dying to see

what life is really like

under The Unbee Tree.

asa

My dear friend Angie likes this so much that she sent me a version from her perspective.  She lives in Washington State and I live in NC.  Here is her “The Unbee Tree” reply.

THE UNBEE TREE REPLY

♥♥♥

THE UNBEE TREE

STANDS TALL IN THE WOODS~

HE SOMETIMES WAITS A LONG TIME FOR THE MIS~UNDERSTOOD~

ARE THEY COMING TODAY? HE SAYS TO THE WIND?~

WILL THEY SIT IN MY SHADE AND CONFESS ALL THEIR SINS?~

OF COURSE THE UNBEE TREE STANDS NOT ALONE IN HIS MIGHT~

HE STANDS MAJESTIC AND TALL WITH GOD’S PROTECTIVE ANGELS

IN THE FATHER’S GLORIOUS SIGHT~

FOR THE UNBEE TREE KNOWS WHO COMES~AND FOR WHAT~AND FOR WHY~

HE STANDS STONG AND TALL LIKE BIG SOLID HUG ABSORBING ALL THEIR CRIES~

HE LISTENS INTENTLY TO THE BROKENHEARTED FILLED WITH PAIN~

HE WATCHES THE TEARS FLOW FROM THEIR LITTLE FACES LIKE RAIN~

UNBEE TREE COMFORTS THEM WITH HIS BIG BRANCES OF SHADE~

ANOTHER CREATIVE BLESSING FOR THEM~ THE MASTER HAS MADE~

THE WIND BLOWS AND WHISPERS~ITS SAFE HERE ABIDE~

JESUS IS SITTING HERE~ RIGHT BY YOUR SIDE~

THE KING OF KING’S ~THE LORD OF LORD’S ~IS HERE TODAY~

TO GUIDE YOU ~TO HOLD YOU~TO WIPE EVERY TEAR AWAY~

THERE’LL BE NO PICKERS OR STICKERS OR BEE STINGS OF SUCH~

UNDERNEATH THE UNBEE TREE YOU’RE SAFE WITHIN THE ARMS OF THE MASTER’S TOUCH

 ANGIE

8-28-10

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Happy Birthday Nathan

Happy Birthday

22 years old today

Nathan my joy

In all my years

No one so dear

Has ever come

Into my world

My precious

Shining Star

I love you so

The gift you are

To me my son

Is beyond all

That a man could

Envision in his

Wildest Dreams

To trust you into

God’s own hands

Is my only sane

Decision after all

That our family

has been through

All of these years

Now 22 small grains

In the sands of time

And what can I do

But shake my head

In wonder at all

That you are.

Looking back I

See the Hand of God

How close we came

To Losing You

But you were spared

Only to lose

Your Brother

In a Cruel

Twist of Life

A week later

Now a man

and a Marine

The few, the brave

and the proud; you

Our only son alive

On God’s earth

I am so proud of you

And the man

You are now

My only hope is

To see you grow

In life all the rest

Of the days of my life.

My God bless you

And keep you all

The days of your life

And may they be long.

I love you

My Son!!!!Happy 22^nd

Birthday and many more.

asa

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Jingle’s Joyful Poetry Delight

Here are the week 26 Jingle’s Poetry Rally awards from  Jingle’s poetry blog. Jingle is the best, check her out if you have not already.  There ar a lot of great poets to be discovered there. Enjoy!  Thank you Jingle!

http://jingleyanqiu.wordpress.com/2010/08/15/poetry-awards-4thursday-poets-rally-week-26-plus-more/

 

Jingle’s Joyful Poetry Delight!!!

sometimes my life is sad

and often my heart is blue

but when I am down so low

that I don’t know what to do

I open up Jingle’s poetry blog

and poems from a heart so true

dance up in joy to greet me

and help me get right through

into the light that shines so bright

so that once I again I may see

rays of sun rising above the night

lighting the way that sets me free

to enjoy Jingle’s joyful poetry delight

asa

images; jingle

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I’ll Never Be A Cricket

If ever I were a cricket

I’d hop about you see

And be at hopity places

Where crickets like to be

If ever I were a cricket

I’d sing as crickets sing

In a little night club

Full of cricket tunes

As crickets surely sing

If ever I were a cricket

I’d eat as crickets eat

In top hat and tails

At a fancy restaurant

As surely crickets must eat

If ever I were a cricket

I’d sleep as crickets sleep

In a four poster bed

Made for crickets rest

As surely as crickets sleep

Alas, I’ll never sing

A cricket’s song

Or eat the delicacies

That crickets eat

Nor will I sleep

In a four poster bed

Or sit in a cricket’s seat

I’ll never do anything

That a cricket lovingly does

For a cricket I shall never be.

(Or would really ever want to be

as far as that is concerned.)

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image; internet

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Sons of Hope

Ryan and Nathan

you are such fine boys

I must confess

That as far as sons

Are concerned

You are the best

I love you both more

Than I ever knew

That I could love

Anyone like I love you

I thank my God

For sons so dear

And my sons

I want you near and

I hope one day

Side by side

We will be

Three grown men

Just wait and see

One day I know

True friends

We will all be

More than just

Man and boys

But Men to Men

Just you and me

It will be, I know it

I love you my sons.

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nothing

nothing

is as it should be

nothing

is every as it seems

when the peaceful

dreams

turn to nightmares

screams

and

the prognosis is grim

and

hope grows dim

and

for one we pray

and get our way

???????

and

for one we pray

and

he falls

anyway

???????

and

we are

left

with nothing

at all to say…….

???????

asa

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August Sons Shine

Ryan and Nathan

a thrill, a joy

and a stab

like a knife

a twist in the back

the loss of life

one son given

one taken back

memories and a dream

all came in

August turned black

a month so filled

with family trust

love and joy

pain and grief

and sadness too

So glad that

You are here

with us

and an I miss

you forever

from us too

all so joyous

and grievous

all in the

month of August

I love you

My Sons

You are so

Very very dear

and I desperately

Need you both

Forever!

Happy Birthday

my fine August sons

one an angel in heaven

and one an angel

here on earth.

I love you both

You know you make this

Father’s heart glow!

asa

♥♥♥♥

August 30, 1982 Ryan

August 19, 1988 Nathan

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