Posts Tagged ‘peace’

Would you love me?
If I told you I was gay?
Or would you look at me
In shocked disbelief,
With nothing more to say?
Would it turn your opinion of me
Like night turns to day?
Or would you say
You always kinda knew.
Then why the dirty jokes
And devilish remarks
That hurts my heart
And makes me blue,
And makes me wonder
If I can ever trust you.
Would you appreciate my honesty?
Would you consider it integrity?
Would you grasp my deep respect?
For both God and man,
In my need to be real and true
And honest about who I am?
Or would you judge me infidel
And turn you back on me
And see me only as another
Little Boy Blue
Lost in the shuffle
And the hustle and bustle.
Now just one of the meaningless
Things in your life. Rejected!
Or, would you try?
Would you try and understand?
Would you stand with me?
Or would you just let fear
And insecurity mold you…..
Into the “Status Quo?”


a tribute to my father, my family and my legacy……….and to honesty and the courage to be real and to be like God our Father…….to just be who we are so we can become who we will be…….
And thanks to Eugene Field who wrote the poem “Little Boy Blue” which has long touched my heart, made me cry and remember my lost little boy and to appreciate every moment with the people I love and respect and to accept them all just for who they are and nothing more……let God handle the rest…….

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Cast off the artificial feelings

of the body and the mind

induced by frivolous delicacy’s

that numb the pain but leave behind

scars and wounds, lessons of sorrows

that litter the path of yesterday

and wait for us in our tomorrows

walking in the valley of tears

searching, for the Lord of the Valleys

full of agony ravaged by fear

dreams of freedom overflow in feelings

too hard to face, too easy to run

disgraced, away from the ones

who can help find the path of conviction

free from the addiction

of instant gratifications

false elation, spiritual frustration

that is no substitute for love

thirsty and hungry, desperate inside

looking for the answers

where dreams have died

and hope is gone, all is lost

and at the highest price

the ultimate cost, is paid

salvation comes when pain surrounds

and sorrows drown your soul

foundation laid, rebuild anew

the life shattered and crushed

by the viciousness of life

in a world filled with cruelty

and left to fate, rising

above the bitterness and the hate

facing the pain with arms wide open

letting the tears of truth wash away

all the lies of self hatred

and cleanse the wounds inflicted

by the chains that bind

the broken hearts of the ones

trapped in the world of the addicted.


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photos; internet

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inner sorrow

darkness falling

i feel so contaminated

worthless from deep within

i ruin everything i touch

everyone is infected by my sin

i fail my friends

i’ve given up on dreams

instead of finding love

it always turns to screams

i should kill myself

i do not deserve to live

what does my wretched

miserable soul

on this earth have to give

i’ve never been good enough

to make it as a son

as for a good husband

i’m not the one

i failed my children

i was too broken to see

how i could ever become

what they needed me to be

i am rotten this i know

i’ve been taught it

through and through

i am filthy useless trash

what am i to do

i cry out in pain and wonder

what is wrong with me

i don’t know what to do

and who i am i cannot see

sorrow fills my shattered heart

in a valley dark and wide

and even though i try and run

there is no where to hide

from this madness

that stalks my mind through

fields of desolation

seeking termination

of my damaged soul

that feels so dirty

filthy and unclean

like soiled merchandise

better unseen

good for nothing

but to be used up

and thrown away

not even good enough

for a rainy day

i could never understand

how anyone wonderful

would want to hang out

with someone awful like me

that just goes to show

how great God really is

that He would

humble Himself

and come so very low

to where i am

and take my hand

and gently lead me

where i should go

God You are



Spooky Owl Tree

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